It’s no secret that I’ve been having a tough time with my weight lately. I feel like I’ve essentially stayed the same weight for the past 9 plus months since Ella was born, and I’ve been stuck. But to be honest with myself, I honestly haven’t really been concentrating on it. I’ve been going to Weight Watchers meetings and acting like I’ve been on plan.
The truth is, I haven’t. I’ve mostly been going through the motions and I have no one but myself to blame for it. But those Weight Watchers meetings, well, they have a way of getting through to you eventually.
That’s what happened today. Today’s meeting topic? Stopping weight stigma, and stopping thinking of your weight in a negative way. It actually came at the best time, because Chris and I were just talking about this last night – the way that we want to teach our girls about their bodies.
I don’t want them to use the words “fat” and “skinny.” In fact, I don’t even want to use those words in our house. I want them to use positive words – strong, healthy, energetic, active. I don’t want them to hear me or Chris being negative about our bodies. I don’t want to put any of those negative thoughts in their head and I don’t want their internal dialogue to reflect their weight the way mine has for as long as I can remember. I want better for my girls. I do not want a number to define their self-worth. They are more than that.
The thing is, giving them better body image starts with me. It starts with Chris and I teaching them that their bodies and their looks are only one piece of who they are. That the food they eat is fuel for their bodies and their minds. It starts with teaching them moderation – that both broccoli and birthday cake have a place in our lives, and to not feel bad about eating either one.
It also starts with me being the example, and with me taking care of my own body. With that, today marks a reset for me. I had Weight Watchers put today’s weight as my new start weight, started a new booklet, and I’m changing my mindset from now on. I want to be strong, healthy, and above all, there for my daughters. I want to teach them that the number on the scale is just a number, and that number in no way reflects the people that they are.
Time to set the example.