It’s been kind of a weird week, and honestly, it’s put me in a little bit of a funk. Nothing major, but just things have been bugging me. You ever get like that? I’ve been kind of over everything this week and just craving some rest, but life certainly doesn’t stop just because you need a breather.
I don’t really know what it is, but it could certainly be the weather. It’s been crazy cold. Today’s high will be 18 and I believe it was around 5 when I left for work this morning. I know there are people that deal with worse, but it’s just a lot to take.
Because it’s been that cold, the pipes froze in our master bathroom on Sunday. Thankfully we were able to warm the house and room up enough that it thawed and has seemed fine since, but it’s just one more thing to think of in the back of my mind. Also? The toilet is now running in the same bathroom and I had to cut the water off to it until we figure that out. I’m hoping it’s just an easy fix like replacing the flap, but it just seems like one thing after another lately. Next month’s water bill should be interesting – I’m hoping it didn’t waste too much water in the one workday it was running!
As always, I stress about money all the time. We’re doing ok, but still far from where I’d like us to be financially. Replacing the dryer last month was a bit of a hit to us, so I’m definitely going to be trying to be more careful about our spending for the next month to make up for it. I dream of the day that stuff like that doesn’t seem like a big deal. Debt sucks.
We got hit by some snow on Monday night. Not enough to keep us home for days, but Abbie and I did get a snow day on Tuesday. Thankfully they’ve gotten better about plowing lately and it was back to business as usual Wednesday. I know I should’ve enjoyed being home on Tuesday more than I did, but the truth is I was going stir crazy. Winter with a toddler is brutal. I just want to be able to let her go outside and play, and we’re still a while away from doing that. We went to a birthday party on Saturday with tons of bouncy houses, and it was so nice to just let her be a kid. I wish we could go to those all the time.
Speaking of Abbie, I worry some about her speech. She talks, but nowhere near the amount I see other kids her age talking. I don’t know if it’s just her nature, or if she isn’t being stimulated enough, or if something could be wrong. My gut tells me that she’s just taking her time, but it’s so frustrating. I really want to be able to understand her better, and honestly, it’s hard to see videos of other kids her age (or younger) talking when their parents post them on Facebook and stuff. I know I shouldn’t compare, but I can’t help it. Why are they talking so much and Abbie isn’t? She has been talking more and more in the last 2 months or so, so I’m hoping some big explosion of words is coming. She definitely understands us and can follow directions, so I’m not worried about her cognitive skills. It’s just hard. What’s even harder is when people try to brush off my concerns or say things like “oh, once they start, they don’t stop!” What they don’t get is that I want that – I want her to be talking that much. I’d take that any day over waiting and worrying something’s wrong.
I wouldn’t change my decision to work, but I often wonder what our lives would be like if I didn’t have to. Would Abbie be talking more? Would she be showing an interest in potty training? Would we be on kid number two sooner? I don’t know, and it’s impossible to know. We can only make the best choices we can with the situation in front of us, right?
Finally, after weeks of being on a roll with watching what I’m eating and working out, I’ve hit a bump. I went up a pound last week, and it kind of took some of the steam out of my engine. Losing weight is HARD. It’s always going to be hard. It’s a choice you have to make over and over and over again, with every bite that goes in your mouth and every step you take. It’s been harder this week than the past few. I’m hoping it’s just a phase, that I just wore myself out some, and that some rest will get me back to it. I can’t go at 100% all the time – sometimes your body just needs a break.
How’s your week been?