It seems like every fall is a season of change. Not only is it reflected in the trees, leaves, and weather, but in our lives as well. At least, it is in mine.
We just celebrated Rosh Hashanah, the start of the Jewish new year. It’s a time to reflect, to think of the year that’s coming, and to reflect on the year that’s past. I’ve always loved that it coincides with the fall. It signifies a fresh start, a way to make all those changes your own.
It also seems like almost every fall welcomes changes and big events in my family and with my friends. Last year it was moving into our new home. A few short years ago I was pregnant with Abbie. It always seems to hit around now, when I’m welcoming a new year of the Hebrew calendar.
This year, the big change is Chris starting a new job. We’re excited about the opportunities it will bring. I’m also nervous as I am with any big change. For at least the first few months, Chris will be traveling quite a bit – something that’s new to us. He’s never really had to travel much for work before, and we’ve always been able to work as a team as parents – able to step in wherever and whenever it’s needed. I do a lot of the prep work now, but I’m nervous to handle so much by myself. Chris being gone means getting both Abbie and I ready and out the door by 7 am – with bags and lunches packed and ready to tackle traffic. It means dinner, dishes, laundry, and the bedtime routine by myself. It also means a change for Abbie, one that’ll be hard for her to understand.
I know a lot of families deal with this all the time, but I also feel like for many of these families, the other is a stay at home parent. I could be totally wrong on that, but that’s the impression I get. Of course, that doesn’t mean it’s easy for them – I firmly believe every family has their own challenges – but it’s a bit different with two working spouses. I’m not really sure how it’s all going to go. How on earth am I going to do it all by myself on the days he’s traveling?
So I’m nervous. Really nervous, but there’s nothing I can do. Change is coming, and I know it’s for the better… but I have to get through the hard part first.