They just are. I don’t really know what has possessed Abbie lately, but she’s been a giant pain some days. Especially at bedtime. The worst part? She’s not old enough for me to explain that she’s hurting my feelings… but she still hurts them. Sometimes toddlers are just jerks.
Abbie has had basically the same bedtime routine since before I went back to work after maternity leave, just tweaked over time. When she was a baby, it was bath, nurse, bed. Then nursing was replaced with a bottle when she decided she was done nursing. Then we added in reading stories, and eventually she didn’t want the bottle. Nearly all of those changes were Abbie’s decisions – one day, she wouldn’t nurse. One day, she wouldn’t take the bottle. Overall, I’ve been okay with it, but now she’s trying something I’m just not okay with.
She doesn’t want me to read her stories anymore. She wants to do it herself.
I’m having a really hard time with it, and it’s something I really can’t accept. For over a year now (since sleep training), Abbie has gone to bed with no issues, no crying, and a kiss goodnight. The last two nights? She’s been screaming when we put her in her crib… because she wants to keep looking at her books. I definitely don’t want her to think she can’t have her books – we are definitely a family of readers – but bedtime is bedtime, and I miss my sweet routine with my girl. It was always the best part of my day.
So, now I’m wondering what, if anything, to do. Is it a phase she’ll grow out of? Do I need to switch up her routine? Is it time to go to a toddler bed (even though she’s never tried to climb out of the crib) so she can climb in with her books and I can turn the light out? I don’t know the answer. All I know is I want to keep reading to my little girl. Stop growing so fast, bug. Mama can’t keep up.